Where are you?
Every night I lay awake
My heart bleeding into my hands
Loneliness is biting deep
Its stealing sleep
The ceiling is like a canvas
Projecting memories
And half formed dreams
Recurring themes
Of pain, and fear and all on my own
I find I fall
Through my walls
With nothing to hold me anymore
I scrabble up
From inside the well
The black unknown
Pulls me down
I fight for breath
And suffocate
A world of fear, a world of hate
Somewhere you stand
Just on the edge
Of my vision, of my heart
If only you were here.
I can see more than I'm meant to see
The world is hollow
And I'm falling in
I claw the walls
But I can't take hold
Stretching forth
I cannot reach
I'm in a fortress
That can't be breached
Should I call for help
Would anyone hear
If they did
Would they shed a tear
The world has forgotten
They've left me behind
I'm drowning
In my addict mind
A distant light
One faint glimmer
A calling voice
That seems to shimmer
Could it be
Someone heard my plea?
Copyright Natasha Lewin
Verse
Unrequited love
A death knell
For the hearts defenses
The walls that held so firm before
Are blown apart
Protecting nothing anymore
The hurt and pain of old
Was kept at bay until that day
When you walked through my door
I couldn't help it
I couldn't change it
You were everything
I never knew I was waiting for
Chorus
You conquered my heart
Right from the start
I laid down my arms
Before your charms
But I couldn't see
You couldn't love me
I just didn't see
That your heart wasn't free
Verse
And so there it is
The black hole I should have seen
You loved another
And it wasn't me
She is the one that fills your drea
Verse
The door slams
In the deep dark night
I'm all alone now
A rudderless ship with no light
To guide my way
I lie huddled in my bed
My body a crumpled
Dirty linen sheet
I barely have the strength left to cry
Everything I had
Everything I was
You took away with you
Chorus
My heart shatters
Under the heal of your unforgiving hand
I'm slipping and sliding
Under a thousand grains of sand
Verse
I suffocate beneath the weight
Of a world that isn't you and me
I can't breathe
I can't think
I'm lost in the hourglass of Fate
And I don't know how to break free
I beat against the walls of injustice
But the glass is too thick
Where are you?
Every night I lay awake
My heart bleeding into my hands
Loneliness is biting deep
Its stealing sleep
The ceiling is like a canvas
Projecting memories
And half formed dreams
Recurring themes
Of pain, and fear and all on my own
I find I fall
Through my walls
With nothing to hold me anymore
I scrabble up
From inside the well
The black unknown
Pulls me down
I fight for breath
And suffocate
A world of fear, a world of hate
Somewhere you stand
Just on the edge
Of my vision, of my heart
If only you were here.
I can see more than I'm meant to see
The world is hollow
And I'm falling in
I claw the walls
But I can't take hold
Stretching forth
I cannot reach
I'm in a fortress
That can't be breached
Should I call for help
Would anyone hear
If they did
Would they shed a tear
The world has forgotten
They've left me behind
I'm drowning
In my addict mind
A distant light
One faint glimmer
A calling voice
That seems to shimmer
Could it be
Someone heard my plea?
Copyright Natasha Lewin
Verse
Unrequited love
A death knell
For the hearts defenses
The walls that held so firm before
Are blown apart
Protecting nothing anymore
The hurt and pain of old
Was kept at bay until that day
When you walked through my door
I couldn't help it
I couldn't change it
You were everything
I never knew I was waiting for
Chorus
You conquered my heart
Right from the start
I laid down my arms
Before your charms
But I couldn't see
You couldn't love me
I just didn't see
That your heart wasn't free
Verse
And so there it is
The black hole I should have seen
You loved another
And it wasn't me
She is the one that fills your drea
Verse
The door slams
In the deep dark night
I'm all alone now
A rudderless ship with no light
To guide my way
I lie huddled in my bed
My body a crumpled
Dirty linen sheet
I barely have the strength left to cry
Everything I had
Everything I was
You took away with you
Chorus
My heart shatters
Under the heal of your unforgiving hand
I'm slipping and sliding
Under a thousand grains of sand
Verse
I suffocate beneath the weight
Of a world that isn't you and me
I can't breathe
I can't think
I'm lost in the hourglass of Fate
And I don't know how to break free
I beat against the walls of injustice
But the glass is too thick
This morning I had an interview to become a Student Mentor at the College I graduated last year. I loved Qantm College (Brisbane) and was stoked to have been shortlisted for this position and even more stoked when I got the position this afternoon!!! So excited! To be able to be in a creative environment, to be able to help inspire people and motivate them to be amazing in a field I love and to get paid for it - I can't imagine anything better than that at this point in my life, plus I get to give back to the college that meant so much to me.
Super successful day!